|This is the name of the exam that I failed|
This morning I woke up a little before 5:30 and remembered that yesterday was the first Tuesday of the month. I failed at getting my post in on time. This wasn’t on purpose, but it completely fits into what I was going to write about.
A week ago (well, a week and a day ago now), I sat down for a four hour actuary test. Through the Society of Actuaries, it is the third exam and it is called Exam MLC, which stands for Models for Life Contingencies. I did my best. That, however, was not good enough. I failed.
There were three steps I went through that were not too different than the steps my friend Jonathan suggests in his blog post: Failure is Good. So are You Failing Enough? These three steps were as follows:
- Feel the pain. Failing the exam gave me a depressing feeling. I felt very psychologically drained. I knew it would pass eventually, but I did not force it to go away. I let myself feel what I was feeling. After all, we’re human.
- Begin focusing on whatever positives that come from this. I couldn’t see these right away, but they surfaced soon enough. I was able to share the experience with my students, show some vulnerability, and let them know that I knew what it was like to be in their shoes. I noticed Sharing Your Failures came in quite handy.
- Think about what I have to do for next time. There was a simple fact: I wasn’t ready. I didn’t realize that until about a week before. I now know what to expect, and the strategies I need to use in order to pass it.